Sunday, November 15, 2015

The Man

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Holding the weak soft hand
Of an old lady called Ammi
Crafting a warm smile
On her sweet motherly face

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Make a good company
To an old man called Abba
Filling his heart & soul
With a fragrance of happiness

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Creating a house called home
For the loveliest lady
The mother of my progenies
Paving a path way
To the eternal blessing
Holding her warm and soft hand
Striding into the door of heaven

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Blowing a joyful laugh
Through the fruity voice
Of an innocent child
Whom in his singsong voice
Jubilantly call me Baba

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Humiliating himself before his Master
Recognizing His presence
While standing, bowing and prostrating
Fearing the Almighty all alone

I want to be that man
Whom his soul is full of contentment
As described by his Master
In His flawless Book of Guidance
To whom He calls as
The one with a “sound heart”


إلا من اتى الله بقلب سليم
"But only one who comes to Allah with a sound heart" 

It's Raining Day
Kuala Lumpur
16/11/2015 /15:22
"Yiruma - Love Me"

Friday, November 13, 2015


In the darkest hour of the night
My eyes refuse to bow down
To the demand of my sleepy body
Staring the dusty white ceiling
My gaze seems entrapped in the cobweb
That left bedecking the corner of my room
I feel myself drowning
Sinking In the unseen oceanic
Created by not a soul except mine
Drowning in the dark world
Parted away from my Lord
Regrettably, it was me
Who builds the barrier
It was my foot
That sauntered away from Him
I feel empty
Amid the richness of my affluence
I have been forgetting
The path that I used to walk in
As if I’m not my old self
I miss Him
I miss the moment
When my forehead touches
The cold marble ground of my chamber
I miss the time
When my fingers wiping off
The watery eyes of mine
In the midst of nocturnal
Reminiscing my past days
Being the cliché version of me
Forgetful and oblivious
Of the order of my Lord
And my heart is aching
Seems like dying

O my Lord
Hear me please
Guide me please
Strengthen me please
I’m in need of you
While you are free of any need
Forgive me
My soul yearns to be called
The “Reassured Soul”
With the leverage of
Entering into Your Jannah
In the company of the Blessed one.

"O reassured soul,
Return to your Lord, well-pleased and pleasing [to Him],
And enter among My [righteous] servants
And enter My Paradise"
Al-Fajr, 89;27-30


End Notes:
in the pitch dark of night 
sitting by the corner of my living room 
trying to manifest the quench 
of my thirsty heart
the saga of yearning;
my One and Only Lord. 
*in the company of 
Yiruma - When the Love Falls
[ ]

2.30 am / Taman Melati, Kuala Lumpur.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015


They said
We’re gonna meet
One day, at a juncture
Of a random road
On certain second, minute and hour
It could be tomorrow or day after

They said
You just have to have faith
As faithful as the moon
Waiting for the sun
Sharing part of its vividness
To shine the darkest hour of night

They said
Keep walking
Keep waiting
Keep wondering
Coz’ she’ll be ascending
Sonner or later
That’s what they said

They said
‘As patient as an ox’
And I found myself stumble
By the corner of my chamber
Telling myself to be patient
But my dil keeps denying
Guiding me vice versa

They said
Go look for her
At any mountain, sea or lake
Maybe she’s too shy
As shy as the fawn
Maybe she’s waiting
For you to knock her door

And I said
I’ll keep walking 
I’ll keep waiting
I’ll keep wondering
Till I find you
Coz’ I have faith
Someday we’ll meet
And from that day forth,
You’ll be with me

In the heat of gloomy sun
Bukit Bintang, Kuala Lumpur
"Yiruma - Till I Find You"

Friday, October 02, 2015

My Sweet Ammi

Its new day again
And every new day
Reminds me of the unshakable fact
The time-space of us
As if it’s a long thread
And there we are
Holding each end of it
We keep eyeing it
Being cut bit by bit
Leave us with shorter thread
Our limited time is been taken away
Second by second
Soon I’m gonna miss
The bright smile on your
Sweet loving motherly face
Soon I’m gonna miss
The warmest touch
Of your soft hand
Soon I’m gonna miss
The sweet smell
Of your black brownish hair
The brownish of henna
Sparking the brightness
Of your beautiful façade
Hearing your sugary laugh
Pleasing my eardrum
As if a sweet melody
Is playing over my hearty heart
In the darkest of night
Your figure is running over
Through my gloomy mind
It sparks the blazing fire
Of longing and love
Burning my calmness
As our thread is getting shorter
And our limited time
Soon gonna comes to an end
I’m afraid
Have I really cherish
The innumerable love of yours
My sweet Ammi

In the midst of Haze
Ba'da Zuhr
Kuala Lumpur
Over the melody of piano:
"Yiruma - Passing By"

Thursday, March 12, 2015


Last night
I dreamt of you
You are still here
Breathing weakly
Looking at me
With teary eyes
I'm confused
I thought you were long gone
I thought you went missing
But you are still here
As if I could read you
As if you are giving me hints
But why I'm not saying it
I was silent
And I can't utter any word
You were long gone
You are now with your Maker
May be peace be upon you
May you be happy over there
The other side of another world
With your Rabb
And again
You were here in my dream..


Tuesday, February 03, 2015


Simbahan cahaya mentari
Bagaikan harum bau kasturi
Apatah lagi di musim dingin salji
Terasa ketenangan membaluti
Lalu membias senyuman dibalik pipi

Disaat indah itu
Akal dan hati mengukir rindu
Pada susuk tubuh yang Satu
Ironinya figura itu masih belum kutemu
Khabarnya dia wujud ribuan tahun lalu
Anehnya cinta dan rindu
Ia bisa terukir dikalbu
Walau tiada pertemuan yang berlaku

Dia masih berjalan disisi manusia
Bait tutur kalamnya masih terasa
Ukiran indah senyum tawa
Terpapar setia dibalik minda

Kita pernah bersua
Menjamah tamar bersama
Menghirup zam-zam penghilang dahaga

Kita pernah mengatur langkah
Melalui padang pasir yang merekah
Menuju ke kota Mu, Al-Madinah

Semua itu hanya mimpi indah
Sengajaku ukir peneman dikala susah
Menjadi ubat penyembuh resah
Resah rindu dan cinta padamu Rasulullah

Mimpi ini enak dimain
Dikala mentari menghangat dihari dingin
Dikala bauan kasturi harum dihembus angin
Dikala hatiku ditusuk rindu dihari kelmarin.

Alunan Musik Latar yang Menusuk Kalbu:
Lah Ahmad - Kehadiranmu

Diambang waktu Zohor,

Thursday, October 16, 2014


I wake up to a melody
Running through my ears
Penetrating my reddish heart
Crafting a calm sensation
Sweet melody of You
Reconciling my agony
Invigorating my longing
Longing for You my dear
Deep yearning that suffers my essence
Sparking the blaze of poignancy
My soul keeps running
Inquisitive of You
And my consciousness bursting
Full of queries wanting for responses
For I can barely standing


My intuition waking me up
Forcing me to prostrate
Grovel for Your Love and Mercy
Crying for Your Rain of Blessing
O My Lord!
Come and take my yearning soul
I submit the whole enchilada
Solely just for You
I reach You through the Pages
I feel You through the humiliation
The moment of prostration
Realizing the sweetness of having You
But then again
It just barely quench my thirst
Coz’ my soul is still entrapped
In this Dryness world
And I keep yearning for You
Till the day when my two eyes
Witnessing You without any veil
O my Lord! Accept my soul
Accept my soul unto You
For You are my Everything
My Everything

Background Melody : Love Letter of Al-Baqarah

Friday smile with Sunny Day of Melbourne
Level 5, Melbourne Law School
Melbourne University.

yearning for you, the impecunious slave;

the slave of the most-Wise