Monday, April 25, 2016

Buntu

Longlai langkahmu
Melihat tadbir hidup mu
Yang mengoncah kalbu
Terasa sesak dada beradu
Seolah tiada ruang mengadu
Hanya titik buntu
Mengikat segala sesuatu

Diri terasa diapungan lautan
Yang dalam tiada ungkapan
Kau cuba menyelam
Mencari jawapan segala kusutan
Namun dasar tiada kelihatan
Kau pulang kehampaan

Berbisik bisik nurani
Bertanya itu dan ini
Kemana pergi Ilahi
Mengapa diri selalu sendiri
Bilakan bahagia datang memanyungi

Namun Iman masih mendiami
Dicelahan kekusutan hati
Menerangi jalan berduri
Membawa mu terbang ke Ilahi
Menoktahi segala persoalan nurani
Meyakini bahawa Tuhan ada menemani
Mendakapmu tanpa kau sedari
Menuntun langkahmu dilorong berduri
Lantas tenang memayungi
Hati nuranimu yang suci

Berkata Tuhanku pada sang Nabi
Ujian Ku bagi mereka yang Ku sayangi
CintaKu bagi mereka yang bersabar hati
BahagiaKu bagi mereka yang mensyukuri
Jadi tenanglah wahai jiwa yang murni! 

Semoga terus kuat wahai sahabatku! 

It is He who sent down tranquillity into the hearts of the believers that they would increase in faith along with their [present] faith. And to Allah belong the soldiers of the heavens and the earth, and ever is Allah Knowing and Wise.
Al-Fath, 4


Yiruma - When the love falls.

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Morning Glory


الله أكبر, الله أكبر
أشهد أن لا اله إلا الله
أشهد أن محمدا رسول الله
.................
I woke up that morning
While my ears all hearing
Of beautiful melody being playing
Calling me off the bedding

As the dawn breeze keeps blowing
Filling the air with serenity
My heart is breathing
Feeling alive in worshiping
Like the blooming of morning glory
While the sun shows its tender

Akin the first morning of spring
This calmness clinches my soul
As the thought of Him grow
Cleansing my heart like the snow

As I read through His Book
Finding His gracious behind the pages
Like the first rain drop
After a long sweaty summer
Quenching the thirst of the wanderer
And that’s when I feel Him
The One who let my blood running
The One who let my legs striding
The One let my eyes blinking

As the moon needs the sun
To brighten up the darkest night
As the chirping birds need the tree
To build a home of serenity
And I’m the little servant
Who’s in need for a Master

  
P.s. - And You, My Lord, is my Master


"And (remember) when your Lord brought forth from the Children of Adam, from their loins, their seed (or from Adam's loin his offspring) and made them testify as to themselves (saying): "Am I not your Lord?" They said: "Yes! We testify,"

Quoted from the Book of Serenity, the Holy Qur'an - 07:172

the clock is ticking - 00:12, Friday

Soorah Al-Fajr - Idriss Abkar
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      


Friday, January 08, 2016

Relentless


I fall in a pitch dark hole
Not once
but countless moments
Though my heart yearns for Him
Action seems denying
I let myself drowning
Though my soul keeps breathing
I felt emptiness surrounding me
Covering my heart from living
I lost in my own life
Pretending I'm all good

I crafted my own steps
Heading towards awry direction
I keep questioning myself
Why can't I be honest to Him
Why am I keep looking for keys
While the door is awaiting
For me to stride in
Wide opened by Him

I feel like running
Unto Him
But I keep falling
From one hole to another

Though I keep failing Him
Though I keep breaking promises
Though I keep making excuses
He is still there
With arms wide open
Waiting for me

Deep down inside
I sense His presence
And I will keep
Trying
Striving
Struggling
To find my way back
Unto Him

Forgive me O Allah,
will You?


I know You will.

"We surely belong to Allah and to Him we shall return"

Saturday Morning.
Taman Melati, Kuala Lumpur.

Inshaallah – Maher Zain.
 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KfXIF2Mm2Kc

Sunday, November 15, 2015

The Man

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Holding the weak soft hand
Of an old lady called Ammi
Crafting a warm smile
On her sweet motherly face

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Make a good company
To an old man called Abba
Filling his heart & soul
With a fragrance of happiness

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Creating a house called home
For the loveliest lady
The mother of my progenies
Paving a path way
To the eternal blessing
Holding her warm and soft hand
Striding into the door of heaven

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Blowing a joyful laugh
Through the fruity voice
Of an innocent child
Whom in his singsong voice
Jubilantly call me Baba

I want to be that man
The one whom always
Humiliating himself before his Master
Recognizing His presence
While standing, bowing and prostrating
Fearing the Almighty all alone

I want to be that man
Whom his soul is full of contentment
As described by his Master
In His flawless Book of Guidance
To whom He calls as
The one with a “sound heart”

----------------------


إلا من اتى الله بقلب سليم
"But only one who comes to Allah with a sound heart" 
[26;89]

It's Raining Day
Kuala Lumpur
16/11/2015 /15:22
"Yiruma - Love Me"

Friday, November 13, 2015

Drowning

In the darkest hour of the night
My eyes refuse to bow down
To the demand of my sleepy body
Staring the dusty white ceiling
My gaze seems entrapped in the cobweb
That left bedecking the corner of my room
I feel myself drowning
Sinking In the unseen oceanic
Created by not a soul except mine
Drowning in the dark world
Parted away from my Lord
Regrettably, it was me
Who builds the barrier
It was my foot
That sauntered away from Him
I feel empty
Amid the richness of my affluence
I have been forgetting
The path that I used to walk in
As if I’m not my old self
I miss Him
I miss the moment
When my forehead touches
The cold marble ground of my chamber
I miss the time
When my fingers wiping off
The watery eyes of mine
In the midst of nocturnal
Reminiscing my past days
Being the cliché version of me
Forgetful and oblivious
Of the order of my Lord
And my heart is aching
Seems like dying


O my Lord
Hear me please
Guide me please
Strengthen me please
I’m in need of you
While you are free of any need
Forgive me
My soul yearns to be called
The “Reassured Soul”
With the leverage of
Entering into Your Jannah
In the company of the Blessed one.
.........................

"O reassured soul,
Return to your Lord, well-pleased and pleasing [to Him],
And enter among My [righteous] servants
And enter My Paradise"
Al-Fajr, 89;27-30

 ........................... 

End Notes:
in the pitch dark of night 
sitting by the corner of my living room 
trying to manifest the quench 
of my thirsty heart
the saga of yearning;
my One and Only Lord. 
*in the company of 
Yiruma - When the Love Falls
[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IVeD9b8cgow ]

2.30 am / Taman Melati, Kuala Lumpur.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

You


They said
We’re gonna meet
One day, at a juncture
Of a random road
On certain second, minute and hour
It could be tomorrow or day after

They said
You just have to have faith
As faithful as the moon
Waiting for the sun
Sharing part of its vividness
To shine the darkest hour of night

They said
Keep walking
Keep waiting
Keep wondering
Coz’ she’ll be ascending
Sonner or later
That’s what they said

They said
‘As patient as an ox’
And I found myself stumble
By the corner of my chamber
Telling myself to be patient
But my dil keeps denying
Guiding me vice versa

They said
Go look for her
At any mountain, sea or lake
Maybe she’s too shy
As shy as the fawn
Maybe she’s waiting
For you to knock her door

And I said
I’ll keep walking 
I’ll keep waiting
I’ll keep wondering
Till I find you
Coz’ I have faith
Someday we’ll meet
And from that day forth,
You’ll be with me
Insha'Allah


In the heat of gloomy sun
Bukit Bintang, Kuala Lumpur
"Yiruma - Till I Find You"

Friday, October 02, 2015

My Sweet Ammi


Its new day again
And every new day
Reminds me of the unshakable fact
The time-space of us
As if it’s a long thread
And there we are
Holding each end of it
We keep eyeing it
Being cut bit by bit
Leave us with shorter thread
Our limited time is been taken away
Second by second
Soon I’m gonna miss
The bright smile on your
Sweet loving motherly face
Soon I’m gonna miss
The warmest touch
Of your soft hand
Soon I’m gonna miss
The sweet smell
Of your black brownish hair
The brownish of henna
Sparking the brightness
Of your beautiful façade
Hearing your sugary laugh
Pleasing my eardrum
As if a sweet melody
Is playing over my hearty heart
In the darkest of night
Your figure is running over
Through my gloomy mind
It sparks the blazing fire
Of longing and love
Burning my calmness
As our thread is getting shorter
And our limited time
Soon gonna comes to an end
I’m afraid
Have I really cherish
The innumerable love of yours
My sweet Ammi

In the midst of Haze
Ba'da Zuhr
Kuala Lumpur
Over the melody of piano:
"Yiruma - Passing By"